I am in real pain, Not from a new or recent injury, but from beatings that happened days, months, years ago. It wakes me in the middle of the night... it keeps me from being productive in the middle of the an average day. It HURTS and I can not and do not take any pain medication that can make it any better.
The pain is not pretty or understandable. It is horrific and ugly and devastating. It leaves me abandoned and isolated and thus obviously alone.
BUT I am not truly alone in this. There are not just hundreds, nor thousands, but millions who share my life. One destroyed by being beaten by a loved one who never was held accountable. Whose life was forever changed and yet no one except themselves was held accountable. The abuser not made to answer or liable for the damage to the victim. Often the victim held culpable by the government for the damage caused to them. Medical & Legal problems expensive and and exhaustive that lead to more medical and legal issues.
I am in pain at a very young age most can not and will not understand.Unlike many of those who are surviving severe domestic assault I am not taking narcotics, anti depressants, anti anxiety, or any pain medication to help. He got away with everything except murder. I will never be able to see clearly from my left eye, walk on my right foot without pain, and so many other daily activities affected. It stole minutes, hours, days and months from my ability to parent my 4 children.
The men who beat me used the legal system against me to take my children. The beatings made me medically unable to care for my children. How is the system fair? How can one who beats you use the legal system to take the only thing you have ever cared for... children... and how does it make sense at the end of the day? Beat her... cause her medical and emotional issues... legally take her children without consciousnesses.
Today, Tonight I am in physical pain from being abused, beaten with hands... feet... and emotional abuse that only those who have unfortunately shared my experience can understand. I am a little different as I have made a personal choice to not use pain medication. Why should I numb myself to what I have not inflicted upon myself? How can I recover with out living out the issue.
If you share my private life, my hurt, my pain... now you have a voice... you are not alone... PLEASE stop keeping it hidden. Come with me and have a voice, because if we can recover and advocate other's in our place will step up. The more that we speak up the more justice we will find.
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Kit Scott
512.744.8057
MkScottAU@gmail.com
Domestic Abuse Survivor & Advocate
